self-mastery journal

the fireworks effect: you’ll never have everything figured out.

Throughout my school years, I used believe there would be some grand moment of fireworks in the future where I’d be totally happy and fulfilled, actually know what I’m doing, and never have to worry about my issues again. I like to call this delusion the fireworks effect.

After a devastating event and an extra ordinary event, the fireworks effect dissolved within me. I realized there would never be a time where I’d have everything in place and everything figured out.

Paradoxically, only when I realized this did I begin to see the sparkling light-show in everything.